Doubts

First off, that case isn't doing well. And it's somewhat uncovering some difficulties with deciding when to let a case go, vs negatively affecting reputation, vs having that recurring income. If you ask me, honestly, I would let it go and opt for better sleep and quality time. The crux lies in how to do that gracefully. 

Met up with friends and previous colleagues over the weekend. Once again, the doubts before leaving came flooding back in full. Was it premature? ("It's too late now, I've made the jump so you either keep swimming or drown" I keep telling myself). And of course, listening to what's happening to the community at large is always useful and sometimes insightful, but one particular conversation just got me almost into panic mode. It just brought on paranoia, fear and doubt. And of course, having someone letting slip things like "not enough experience" sets you thinking too. 

Not for the last time in my life, I've looked back and thought, "what a horrible career path to choose". But what else would I have done then? 

Sometimes I wish I had more than just blogging to find solace in. I'm actually scared of sharing such inner thoughts to just about anyone.